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Sunday, November 14, 2010

Day 46: Mental Exhaustion because of NaNoWriMo, and the Deja Morte Prologue

11/14/2010
The Good, The Bad and The Writing

The Good
I just finished writing my ass off in my Zombie Apocalypse novel and I am fucking exhausted.  I wrote over 13k words this weekend.  I am proud of myself and humbled thinking about writers who get to do this for a living.  Creating something out of nothing really is a difficult job.
I think I have decided on a title for the book.  Let me know what you think.  those of you who have read parts of it at least.  And the rest of you, drop me an email and I'll send you what I've written thus far.  Anyway, the working title is "Just Another Zombie Love Story"

Whatcha think?

The Bad

Can't think of anything right now.

The Writing

Here is the prologue to the novel that I started 7 years ago.  And I still feel it is going to be the best thing I ever write.  I just have to finish it.  Keep in mind as you read this, I have not edited it.  I wrote it in a flourish one evening after I was a full two chapters into the book, and the setting is about 800AD.

Deja Morte

Prologue


In the deep forest lay an immense ring of stones.  How long they had lain there is not known by any that currently draw breath.  In the center of this ring a smaller ring of smaller stones.  The flames rising from the center of this circle of stone lick at the bows of the trees above.  The thirteen individuals kneeling around the pit of flame forming a circle halfway between the two of stone.  From above only the cloaked backs, head and arms are visible.  From outside the circle the monk-like individuals can be seen in better detail.  Each has right knee on the soil.  Leg extending straight behind them.  Left foot planted six inches from right knee.  Chest resting on left knee.  Black hooded head level with the ground.  No faces visible from behind or above.  Arms outstretched with fingertips a mere half inch from the fingertips of the worshippers to left and right.  Arms, spine and head forming a circle of crucifixes around the fire.  Yet, this is obviously no Christian ceremony.  These thirteen are no monks.  Who they are is not clear.  Nor will it ever become clear.  For there are no outside observers to this ceremony.  There will be no witnesses to the massacre that is soon to follow. 
The twelve men and lone woman have waited.  They have listened and watched for the signs.  For a millennia they and those before them have waited.  Tonight!  This cloudless night.  The night foretold when the full moon will disappear from the sky.  Thirteen kneel before the flames chanting.  Thirteen, the required number.  The chanting growing louder with each passing minute.  The thirteen chosen followers never growing tired.  Ignoring the pain in their bodies from the minutes turning to hours in the worship position.  These humans becoming oblivious to the pain.  The pain transferring from their body to the entity forming in the fire.
The moon begins to slowly disappear from the night.  The worshippers pain no notice.  Somehow this occurrence coincides with a volume increase in the chanting.  Energy flowing to the fire from the ring of worshippers.  The rising flames inducing the cloaked individuals deeper into their trance.  Their rising chants emanating into the forest all around.
The moon completely eclipsed in the Earth’s shadow.  The light of the fire the only light in the forest.  However, the light from this fire will not penetrate beyond the outer ring of stones.  The fuel for this fire being both natural and supernatural.  The energy leeching from the worshippers increasing.  The ring becoming brighter.  The forest beyond becoming darker.  The only light without coming from the starlight.  Within the circle the sound coming from the flames begins to transform from crackling and popping of the natural wood fuel, to the sound of the pure agony of the energy absorbed from the bodies of the circle of unholy clerics.  The sound of pain.  The chanting likewise now seeming to come from within the fire outward instead of from the circle of prostrate beings inward toward the central pyre.  Not a funeral pyre, but a rebirthing pyre.  With the world plunged into total blackness outside the unholy ring of stone, the chanting reaches its crescendo.  The sounds no longer issuing forth from those outside the fire, but their voices now siphoned into the flames. 
The fire suddenly extinguishes.  Plunging the ring into the same darkness as the rest of the forest.  This darkness is followed by a flash of light that lights the ring and the forest beyond with the brightness of midday.  Light and energy both speed outward from the center of the three rings.  The human ring blown in all directions.  Each individual thrown forcefully through the air out of the ring of stones.  Three or four of these flew into large oaks.  Some back first, snapping vertebrae and falling immobile to the base of the trees.  Some catching legs on the branches and trunks of the trees as they were hurled through the air.  One particularly unlucky individual flew straight onto a large branch.  Severing his spine and impaling him against the tree.  Blood and entrails falling out onto the branch sticking out of his stomach.  Slowly bleeding to death.  Those lucky enough to not collide with trees land outside the ring, 30 feet from where they had been kneeling.
Where flames had been, now only darkness in its place.  Yet a blackness that could not have been created by mere shadows alone.  Pure black energy created and sustained by the ceremony.  Amorphous at first, slowly a familiar shape begins to form.  Two shadow legs standing atop two shadow feet, supporting the shadow shape of an enormous man-shape.  Shadows have no features.  No depth.  This shadow was no different.  This shadow, however, has eyes.  Crimson eyes.  The shadow head turns this way and that.  Scanning the forest all around.  When it takes its first step from the innermost circle, the humans not knocked unconscious or otherwise incapacitated began to regain control of their own faculties. 
A starlit sky above.  Starlight the only light whatsoever.  Yet there is darkness and there is darkness.  Before the fumbling robed men and woman can regain complete control the ultimate darkness falls upon them one by one. 
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Priestess Bathora hears one scream after another from all around the circle.  The sounds of men dying.  The sounds of an animal killing.  She hears snarling.  She hears no words.  No pleading.  Only the sounds of death from her followers.  All as foretold.  Soon her end would be met.  But not as these sacrifices of lesser beings.  Hers would be a beginning and an end.  She was to give birth to this being they had brought into existence.  She was to be the conduit to turn energy and evil into flesh and blood. 
The forest grew silent.  The screams ceased.  The snarling became panting.  The panting neared.  Bathora was silent.  The panting grew closer.  Now she could feel breath.  Rank, hot breath.  The breathing upon her.  The sound becoming a guttural growl right in her face.  Her eyes were closed yet she could “see” what approached.  An evil she was destined to birth.  An evil she was to unleash upon the world.  An evil that would take her life in the process.
She was thrown to the ground.  She felt not what had done it.  She felt no hands on her.  No claws.  Only that rank breath.  Always in her face.  She was not aware that her robe had been ripped from her as she flew through the air from the “birth” of the energy from the fire.  She could see nothing with her eyes.  She could see it in her mind.  She could see its every intention in her head.  She could sense its lust.  This latter she sensed just before it penetrated her.  Slamming through her hymen.  She screamed.  The pain intense.  It thrust deeper into her unspoiled body.  Unspoiled no longer.  Blood spilling onto the ground beneath her.  The pain driving her toward unconsciousness.  Before she could black out, however, the blackness clamped onto her mind with its.
“You will not sleep.  You will feel.” It growled into her mind. 
She was then aware of a door inside her mind being slammed shut.  Keeping her from seeking peace in unconsciousness.  She began screaming.  Trying to release the pain.  It fed on the pain.  Filled her more and more.  Using her body.  Each thrust slamming deeper into her.  More of it being absorbed into her.  Then the laughing in her head began.  The maniacal laughing of this beast.  Raping her body as was foretold.  She thought she was prepared for this.  Had in fact been preparing for this for twenty two years since the night of the dream on her ninth birthday.  No amount of preparation could have readied her for this ravaging.  Each thrust more of his essence seeped into her.  Filling her womb.
She was aware that the pain in her body had ceased.  The pain in her mind now all the more intense.  She was now not alone in her skin.  She had that thing in her womb.  Already growing flesh and bones.  Her screaming continued.  Now she prayed to a god she had forsaken two decades before.  She prayed to be struck down.  She prayed for unconsciousness.  She prayed for the flesh growing inside her to disappear.  She prayed for the ability to go back and be saved from this fate. 
As if in answer to these pleas her body was wracked with pain anew.  Her naked belly growing.  She could feel it growing.  The fetus inside her feeding on her.  Not as a natural unborn child would.  For this child was anything but natural.  It was quite literally eating her from the inside out.  And still the freedom of unconsciousness would not come.  The pain threshold met, her body went into shock.  Her mind however was still being violated by this monster.  She was shown visions of the death and destruction her womb was about to release into the world.  And at that moment her distended belly ruptured.  Out of the carnage came not a child, but a beast beyond description.  It was more mouth than anything else.  A mouth that immediately began to devour its mother/mate.
When the moon reappeared from behind the shadow of the earth there were no monk-like figures.  There were tattered robes.  There was a great amount of blood staining the soil.  Time would cover that evidence.  The world was less thirteen extremely misled individuals.  It was, on the other hand, plus one great new evil.


good night all.

Stay scared my friends,
My Little Demon
myltldmn@gmail.com

Saturday, November 13, 2010

Day 45:NaNoWriMo progress, Wife still out of town

11/13/2010
The Good, The Bad and The Writing

The Good
     Anyone who has read any of my posts today already know what I am jazzed about today.  I wrote more today, than I have in any one day in my life.  7,000 words in my novel, not to mention what I am going to write here right now.  Just to give you an idea of how much 7,000 hundred words is: that's about 28 pages in a novel.  Give or take.  I'm doing this as part of the NaNoWriMo, yes, but I am also doing it for myself.  I want to grow as a writer.  I want to complete a lengthy writing project.  And this one is farther along than anything I have ever written.  I am now a little more than one hundred pages into this thing, And I think I am also a little more than halfway done with it.  This has been quite a daunting experience and the month isn't even half over yet.  That and there is still so much story left to tell.  At least I think there is.  You see, when I write a story, I let the characters guide it through its paces.  I honestly don't know yet, which characters left are going to die if any, or all of them.  That wouldn't be unheard of for a zombie story.  After all, it is the apocalypse and the story is set in the latter part of 2012.  And you all know what that means.  Wink wink.
     My brain is pretty fried right now.  So I am going to keep this pretty short tonight.  I wrote a lot today.  I am so very excited about that fact. I'm ready for this story to come to life more before my very eyes.  I hope that someday you all will get to read the finished product.  I suppose writing the story is the easy part.  And believe me, it hasn't been easy.  Writing is very rewarding for me.  It allows me to be creative.  Something my accounting job doesn't.  Tomorrow will be more of the same.  Except I am going to get up early enough to hit the gym before going to Barnes & Noble to write for 3 hours straight before lunch.  And then back home for another 3 or so hours of writing.  Word counts.  All this talk about them must be boring you to tears.  Tough! There are a million billion other webpages out there that don't use the words word or count in them.  There are probably a million that don't even have words on them.  Guess what?  You are on my blog right now, reading my random words.  And if you are still reading and haven't clicked one of those buttons at the top of your browser.  Thank you.  I appreciate your time.  I know time is a valuable commodity.

The Bad

Sleeping alone.  My wife is in Vegas for one more night and for the second night in a row, I have to sleep in our bed alone.  And guess what?  Like that chick in the British Zombie Mini Series, "Dead Set",  "I don't liiiike it!"

The Writing

Nothing left to give fiction wise tonight.  Hopefully Monday night will be better.  i expect tomorrow I will feel similar to tonight, as I am shooting for another 6,000 words or so in the Zombie novel.

Good night readers.


Stay scared my friends,
My Little Demon
myltldmn@gmail.com

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Thursday, November 11, 2010

Day 43: The death and rebirth of creativity in a man, and Hey, San Antonio doesn't suck so bad anymore.

11/11/2010

The Good, The Bad and The Writing

The Good
As inspired as ever to complete the NaNoWriMo.  I will not be Week Two'd.  I am going to complete my Zombie novel this month.  And then I am going to let it sit for one month, then I am going to edit the shit out of it.  2011 is going to be the year you all see my name on the cover of book, that you all may purchase.  2011 is going to be the year I finally make the most of my talents.
     I used to think those talents were limited to academia type stuff.  I excelled in school.  I really enjoyed learning.  Then I discovered that I was good at accounting.  Which is again a very non creative aspect to my talents.  There my life stagnated for fifteen years or so.  Then I picked up a speed pourer and learned to make a few drinks.  And in Vegas I thrived emotionally as a creator of drinks for the free spirits, and those that have temporarily decided to become free spirits.  It was in this profession that I discovered a lot about myself.  The biggest thing I learned was that I am a social person.  An accountant by day and a bartender at night and on the weekends.  I don't think I need to tell anyone which of those professions I preferred - and still prefer.  I love interacting with people.  I should know that.  It is what I got in trouble for all the time in school.  But somehow sitting in a cubicle killed my spirit.  And I rediscovered it.
     Then I moved to San Antonio 23 months ago.  And I can't say it has been a particularly positive experience for me.  It has taken me until just this past month to find the positives.  I've learned a lot about classic cocktail making and how to craft a great drink.  Before, in Vegas I learned how to get people shit-faced.  Here I learned how to understand the drinks and the spirits and appreciate them for what they are - finely crafted pieces meant to be showcased just like any great chef's great dishes.  I feel knowledgeable enough to take on a cocktail project or two.  Once my novel has been written that is.
     One of these projects would never have come about if I hadn't moved here.  I am now asking whatever god there is to grant me the endurance to see first this month through, and then next month.  I want to have one novel first draft completed by the end of this month, and all the material I need for the second project by the time my birthday rolls around.  And by the by, that would be the middle of January.

The Bad
None.

The Writing
I am going to cease posting my zombie novel in the blog as I write it.  If I want to get it published, I think I need to stop where I am.  I may even have to take what I have posted down.  I need to do a little more research on the subject.  I really would hate to not be able to publish this because of some stupid technicality.
If any of you would like to read what I have written in it drop me an email and I'll spill my heart out that way.

So now as my friend said about fifty times Monday night, "Without further ado", I am going to sign off and get to some real writing.  I just had to get all that stuff out tonight, since I am really feeling blessed for a change.  And I don't HATE San Antonio anymore.  I don't love it yet either, but give me time.  Who knows.  I think it is going to be the first stepping stone to great things.  And for that it will always have a place in my heart.


Stay scared my friends,
My Little Demon
myltldmn@gmail.com

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